Everyone Sucks.

Warning:  This is a pissed off, ranty post.  If you are in a positive mood and don’t want to ruin that, feel free to pass this over.  I won’t be offended.

First of all, I think the thing that all of this is stemming from is my continued sickness with this pregnancy.  Got sick again on Sunday and today.  We are officially at 20 weeks, hence this is pretty much bullshit.  I had a pounding headache for the entire day yesterday, and I had to go to venue-hunt with my mother-in-law.  Usually a fun time, but was not feeling it at all.  I pretty much don’t care where the baby shower is at this point.  Have it at a bar, for all I care.  Or Pizza Hut, where everyone gets their own personal pan pizza, like Book-It.  I would love that.  Too bad Little Caesar’s doesn’t have a dining room.

Now, let’s talk about work.  My old boss needs to come back immediately.  I am working with idiots now.  All of them.  Part of the reason I came back to this job was because of the person who was commissioner of my department.  It’s hard to find that kind of dedication and intelligence.  And now we are back to square one.  Whatever.

We just got a delivery of cookies for our department.  Since I am the only one here today (as is often the case), I am keeping these for myself.  Pregnant lady gets what pregnant lady wants.  Everyone else can suck it.  I will consider this my win for today.

My back pains are getting insane.  The pain goes all the way through to my ribs on the other side.  Just on my right side, though.  Whatever.    The heating pad is my go-to when I get home.  I should probably get one for the office and look like a super old lady.

50 minutes to go.  Then I get to go home and bake a new recipe.   Fingers crossed!!

I want hibachi style shrimp and some spicy sushi.

That is all.

19 Weeks, 3 Days – Size of a Zesty Zucchini

Moving right along…

Scheduled the ultrasound for January 3!  I wanted it before the holidays, but their scheduling department sucks.  Mike is oddly okay with this.  I suppose it gives us something to look forward to.

In other news, I am in a very crabby mood today.  I hate everyone.  Well, just about everyone.  People who can’t drive, people who can’t show up to work when they are interns, people who are involved in things at work who are fucking idiots and don’t deserve to get paid for the position that was handed to them.  That type of thing.  Contractors who are working right outside my window at work drilling shit.  SHUT UP.

I also hate that my digestive system has started to fail me.  I’ve heard about this happening in the second trimester.  Basically, everything slows down, and it sucks.  I may have also started experiencing heart burn for the first time in my life.  It feels like someone is sitting on my chest and I can barely breathe.  The only comfort is when I can lay down completely.  So if it happens at work, I am pretty much screwed (seeing as I am the only one in the office, for the most part).

I had a doctor’s appointment on Monday.  It was WONDERFUL.  I walked in, and there was no one in the waiting room.  This has NEVER happened.  It is always annoyingly packed.  And then, it smelled like yummy fried chicken.  So I asked the nurse what that lovely smell was, and she gave me some of her curly fries from Arby’s.  I seriously have the best doctor/ nurses ever.  She said that if I am starting to feel less nauseous, then I should EAT EAT EAT!  Then, I proceeded to go to Arby’s after my appointment.  It was somewhat unnecessary, seeing as I had a peanut butter & jelly sandwich and popcorn before my appointment.  But a beef and cheddar, curly fries, and a fountain Pepsi.  Fountain Pepsi makes me so happy.

Heartbeat is at 150 for the little one.  Doctor said everything sounds good and I have even gained a slight amount of weight ::cringe::   Time to go maternity shopping for real this time.  No more walking around with my pants unbuttoned!

I have most of our Christmas shopping done.  I ordered Mike an xBox One, against his wishes.  I know he only said that he didn’t need it because it was too expensive.  However, I feel that this is the last Christmas it will just be about the two of us.  Our lives are going to drastically change, and our expenses are going to skyrocket (I feel).  So, I think the xBox is a great gift, because when he needs a break from the crying baby, or just to get away, he will have that option in the basement.   Plus, I opened one of those stupid Amazon credit cards and got $70 off.  So that was my justification.  I’ve also started to cut my spending.  I bought Suave conditioner for my hair yesterday.  This will for sure make me sound like a snob, but I would only use Moroccan Oil shampoo and conditioner before.  It smells amazing and does amazing things to my hair, but was a whopping $60 per bottle (but they were those giant pump bottles).

In other news, my boss has accepted a job in another City.  This has been a somewhat rough and unexpected change for me.  I’m trying to embrace it, but I just don’t trust the fools who are going to be conducting the interviews and going through the resumes.  They have no clue what goes on in my Department – they are so disconnected from it all.  So, this might just be my motivation to get kicking and start job hunting.  Something closer to home would be ideal.  Something with the work from home option would be more ideal.

Oh, and I hate fucking contractors who continuously call and leave no voicemails.  I am by myself in the office, so if I am helping someone else, you are the very lowest priority for me.  Patience is a virtue, assholes.

18 weeks, 3 days – Bébé is size of Sweet Potato

In honor of me not wanting to post depressing, vomiting things all of the time, I have opted to go for a new format.  This will help me focus on the good, as it should be (sometimes, at least).

I think that I may have turned a corner while vacationing in Florida.  I don’t know if it was the constant sunshine, the Golden Girls-style resistance pool, the reading of a great baby book, or the lack of stress.  Either way, I only got sick once, and it was because I went a little nuts at a casino buffet.  My bad.  🙂

eating:   Trying to eat home cooked meals as much as possible.  Mike has helped with this.   However, he made this awesome tater tot/ poutine dish with ground beef and sauce.  I ate it, loved it, and got sick later that night and lost it all (this was before we went on vacation).  He’s for sure getting frustrated with me.  But with that negative, there comes a positive.  I ate two beef sandwiches last night with hot giardinera.  Mike Ditka’s roast beef to be exact, paired with Mike Ditka’s giardinera.  SO GOOD.  And I didn’t get sick!  This might be my new meal of choice.  At least I got some protein in me!  Baby seemed happy, and I didn’t cramp up at all yesterday.

drinking: Mostly Gatorade and trying to choke down as much water as possible.  It’s been hard, but it’s definitely getting better.   I crave fountain Pepsi now like no other.  That’s healthy, right?!

avoiding:  Anything with tomato sauce, seafood, chicken, avocado, ground beef, Papa John’s pizza (bad experience a few weeks ago).  Baby for sure doesn’t like grease.  Baby is trying to be healthier than momma.

wearing:  at home, my hoody and sweats all the time, if possible.  work attire hasn’t changed, but the pants are really starting to get tight, so I might have to invest in some maternity pants or just start walking around with my pants unbuttoned (oh wait, we’re already there).  super classy!  oh, I haven’t worn high heels in weeks.  I just bought the most comfortable pair of flats from Target yesterday.  they are moccasin/ loafer kind of shoe.  kind of ugly, but SO comfortable for Target shoes!  Mike said the other day, “why don’t you just buy some pants that fit you?”    So we might be making a trip to Target and the maternity section this week (cringe).

feeling: Pretty good, except I do get exhausted some days when I’ve been running around too much. I’m generally pretty awake and alert as long as I get enough sleep (8 hours at least- and I was even sleeping 10 in Florida!!  at one point, my father-in-law said, “wow, you can really sleep!”), but there are some days that I just want to fall onto the couch and veg out , which is pretty much what I do when I get home from work.  That, and I eat some yummy white cheddar cheese-its.  Also, my lower back (right side, specifically) has been hurting like no one’s business.  I know that this is normal, since things are shifting, and thus my body balance is off, but it does seem a bit early to be dealing with back pain when I am barely showing at all.  Obviously, this concerns me, as it will likely only get worse in the future.  Oh well, the heating pad has been my friend as of late.  My masseuse also told me to buy some hot/ cold pads that are supposed to work wonders.  My how my Christmas list has changed this year!  No more Anthro clothes, just hot-cold pads and some maternity leggings that I will likely live in for the next few months.

reading: I bought a book in Florida to read by the pool called “Bringing Up Bébé” by Pamela Druckerman.  I am in love!  It is about an American woman – born and raised in the states – who married a gentleman who ended up getting relocated to Paris.  There, she became pregnant and brought up her little bébé amongst French families.  The thing is, the French style of parenting is SO incredibly different than how most parenting is done here in the United States.  Kids are so demanding here, and parents just let it go and let it happen if their kids agree to shut up.  I’m not saying that I would never bribe my kid with McDonald’s in hopes of them sitting still for a few minutes while momma tries to get something done.  But I already know things that I want to avoid.  I also worry that it will be 10 times more difficult to manage because we are surrounded by children that get what they want NOW, or ELSE.   I told Mike he will need to read it afterwards.  There are things you can implement as parents while the child is even a newborn.  Consistency is key, so Mike has got to be on board.  Fingers crossed 🙂  Here is a link to the book:  http://www.pameladruckerman.com/books/bringing-up-bebe/

buying:  Just trying to get as much Christmas shopping done as possible.  Lots of roast beef sandwich items.  Our Christmas tree!  No baby shopping for a few weeks at least.  I have a doctor’s appointment on Monday, and she will give me the orders to schedule an ultrasound so that we are able to find out the sex of the baby.  Maybe I will allow minimal shopping at that point.  I just know we are going to get bombarded at Christmas.  Oh well, we will be well prepared either way!

sleeping: Pretty good!  I’m actually not waking up every night to pee anymore.  And of course, now I’m getting paranoid that something might be wrong.  I’ve been staying up later though, and I try to stop drinking liquids around 9 or so.   Can’t sleep on my tummy anymore, but that’s okay with me.  Laying on my left side has proven to be the best for me.

loving:  Getting ready for Christmas and buying Christmas cards with a special “Baby Peters coming in May 2015” message.  Telling pretty much everyone the news without blasting it on Facebook yet.

getting used to: Tight pants, tight shirts, tight bras…   and I THINK that I can feel baby moving.  I could be wrong.  I suppose it could be gas, which is why I am reluctant to even type this.  But I do think I can feel him/ her dancing around.  Especially when I am laying on my back with my hands on my tummy.  Weird, weird, weird.  But it is a good weird.  Love love love 🙂